What is a name

The story behind my name is somewhat interesting. When I asked my mom about why they chose Lucas as my name they told me it was because they liked the director Luc Besson. I don't know why they made it into Lucas, but they did. They also told me that if I were a girl my name would have been Vivian, or Vivy for short. I am not quite sure how I feel about Vivian, but I think that it would have fit me had I been a girl. Just like how my current name fits me now. I can think of a few times when my name has made me feel insecure. For some odd reason every once in a while I will tell someone my name is Luc, but with a U and a C instead of a K. I assume that keeping the E at the end wouldn't make all that sense, but people continuously keep the E. My name ends up Luce, in that moment I think to myself, why did my parents name me such a weird name. Then I go about cursing myself for not telling them to remove the E. It is a quite the struggle.


I think Gogol's name is a hindrance to him because of a two reasons. The main reason being that it is so unique and strange, not to mention it doesn't exactly flow off the tongue. You kind of choke on your tongue while saying it. The second reason is that most likely no one else in the world has the same name as him. Gogol is a Russian last name, not even a first name. He will never fit into the Indian community because his name isn't Hindu. Not only that, but no one will remember his name on a grave stone because he will be cremated. Those are the reasons why I think Gogol is so aware of his name.