This is a contradiction.

One of my most major contradictions that plagues me almost everyday of the week is my love of learning, but my hatred of studying. I hate studying, but I love to sit down and read a good book about the ocean or watch a documentary about ginseng, but if I were to do a report or a test on one of those topics I would immediately begin to hate it. I do not beat myself up over this contradiction because I believe that if I truly love something then I will seek out more information on the topic. In doing so I will be preparing and it won't really seem like "studying". I've only just recently discovered this, so I will most likely be trying to convince myself that everything I learn is something worth looking into more. The ones who are most disappointed with this contradiction are my parents because it is hard for them to understand how one can love learning, but hate learning at the same time. I probably have more contradictions, but I'm going to try and fix this one before I seek out others.